I knew I’d regret it if I didn’t say it right there.

I was contemplating for awhile

If that was the right choice,

Would I be happy?

Is this the right thing to do?

Am I going to be known as the girl who broke his heart into a million pieces because she “doesn’t” have an ounce of sympathy in her?

I would remember the happy moments

The times we spent together

laughing & talking

It’s like whenever something bad would happen it would disappear from my mind and the happy memories took over

It took me time

I searched my doubts

Was this the right decision for me?

I came to the conclusion,

If I don’t do it right now,

I’m going to regret it.

For a few moments,

I was filled of regret after saying those words to him.

I didn’t want to hurt him

But it was too late.

I thought about telling him I didn’t mean it

It took strength to get through

I struggled,

Having my thoughts scrambled

But in the hard moments,

I thought about the people I love

How much better my relationships with them would be

I thought if I ended it with him,

I would get my best friend back.

I almost lost her because of him

It was my fault

I wanted to spend time with him

But with her as well

I was stressed trying to balance those times

But I felt if I tried to explain,

it wouldn’t make sense.

I was filled with guilt

Crying because I wanted my best friend back

I was way closer to losing her than I’d like to admit.

I wish I could tell her I really am full of sorrow

I wish it could be back to what it was before him

If I told her now,

How much I regret it

I don’t think she would understand.

I feel like I’m the worst friend ever

I try to be a good friend

But I don’t think it’s working

I try to put in the effort

But it is enough?

Am I enough?