The first time we came back home after you died

Seeing the house from the outside looked normal

Everything looked normal to the outside world

When I went to the door

The key I’ve had with me still fit the lock

But the house no longer felt like home

I walk in to this cold

Empty

Quiet House

I’ve never felt so helpless in my life

For the first time ever

I wanted to burn this place down with all the memories inside

And yet close this house in a safe to keep protected forever

I wanted both

To destroy everything in sight

And to hold on to everything before I lose that too

More than anything In the world

I just wanted you to come back with us

I wanted you to make this house

Into a home again