I want to be alone

But also be held

Why can’t I choose?

I want everyone to leave

But I’m scared of being left

Why such a difference?

I want to sink into an abyss

But frolic with friends in a field

Can I have both?

I feel so empty

But I know people care

So why can’t I see that?

I feel worthless

Yet people love me

Why is that?

I felt fine yesterday

And even earlier today

So why not now?

I feel like crying

But don’t know how

Did I ever know?

Please, someone could you help

Figure these emotions out

Or is that too much to ask?