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Dear Even,

Today was rough

And tomorrow will be to

Mom is always working

Dad isn’t around

Others have a family

But all I have are parents

The house feels so empty

Not like a home

I’ve tried to make friends

I’ve tried to be normal

No one’s there

And no one cares

I’m never seen or heard

I could fall and I wouldn’t make a sound

So I’m up in a tree

Ready to let go

This is goodbye

Sinc...

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When I speak no one hears

I try to be heard or maybe seen

There is one who always knows I’m there

And she sees me as I am

But even so I feel this void

Deep inside my gut

I can’t sleep sometimes because of fear

Maybe I should disappear

In her eyes I am replaceable

A side note in her world

Whenever I’m not well she’s there

My pain a burden to her

Sometimes I just don’t give a shit

But I ...

I don’t like being honest

That’s couse sometimes it can hurt

But there’s two things I have to say

Let’s get started on the first

I figured out my sexuality

It took some time and thought

But now I know I am bi

I fell for my best friend

Unrequited love is hard no doubt

But I’ll survive it in the end

The second thing was harder

My gender was more confusing

But I’m pretty sure I’m a fluid demigirl

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What is love?

Wanting what’s best

Growing with them

Choosing to stay

Even when the butterflies fade

It’s not all sunshine like in the shows

There are darker moments to

Working together despite it all

Not always holding hands

Or hugging tight

Just being there all of life

The kind of love that I can’t have

But still I hope

Because you are there

Not as a partner

But as a friend

I can’t have all b...

The sun rises and sets

The days go on

The hours tick by

She is by my side

She is my best friend

She is the cute nerd

I know my feelings for sure

I know I’m in love with her

I know it’s not possible

Still she is there

Still I see her day by day

Still I love her

Content to watch

Content to sit on the side

Content to love who I can’t have...

I’m trapped, encircled by walls

Walls that I built to keep the world out

Out of my hair, so I’m away from danger

Danger both physical and mental

Mental like my words that no one can hear

Hear me please, I’m trying my best

Best isn’t good enough, I’m not enough

Enough for this world of perfection

Perfection that is flawed, blinded by outward beauty

Beauty I don’t have, I am nothing

Nothing to...

Get up in the morning

Work hard all day

Help whenever asked

Help even when not

Smile brightly

Be perfect

Finish and go home

Repeat forever

Even when sad

No matter the treatment

Don’t complain

Don’t protest

Don’t get upset

And don’t ask for help

You can’t be selfish

Never be selfish

Make sacrifices

Help others

That’s your task...

I’m always there

In the corner

Never seen

Away from the world

When I speak

No one hears

If I disappeared

No one would notice

No one would care

It’s better that way

Walls so high

Away from pain

Till the end of time

Or I die...

I like to go to the park

Me and my friend go often

We sit and talk together

Somtimes about nothing

Other times about everything

It’s nothing fancy or grand

Just quality time with her

We don’t sit close or hold hands

But it means a lot to know she’s there

I’m her best friend forever

However I see her as more

I don’t need a change

I don’t need a chance

It would be nice but that’s not the plan

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Beauty is relative

Based on preference

However I think we can agree

Sunsets hold great beauty

Pink and gold

So many hues

Strun across the sky

Somtimes romantic

Other times sad and lonely

Either way gorgeous

Every person sees them different

Yet we’re all seeing the same thing

Connecting us all

Under on color filled sky...