… … … … Am I fine? I am Am I sad? Of course not Have I cut? Never Now these are lies I don’t need help I will be fine And that’s what counts

… … … … I saw the thought coming I knew it was bad Seen it’s destruction I’ve been told not to I know why as well So why didn’t I listen Why’d I do it still Scissors to skin Trying to draw blood Not a clue why Thinking it’s fine Normal and ok for me Knowing I’d worry If someone followed suit Even a bully Why can’t I cry I feel like I have to But instead I smile and laugh Like everything’s ok I don’t understand What’s happening to me

Poison is rather fascinating You can use it maying was One could kill someone Another numb their pain Toxicology is their study I will to learn it well You should join as well

Just act natural Your life isn’t falling apart Everything is fine You will be all right

Just act natural Everything’s going to plan Your grades are all right And you managed friends

Just act natural No one needs to know They don’t need to see The disaster you are

Softness is to anger what rain brings to snow Melting it away with sweet and gentle care Releasing the tension that’s bound in the air

Helping a soul and not just for the show Warm tender actions that change a heart Seeing through what has been torn apart

When your cold you numb After that you warm Not because you are It still hurts, a sharp pain But if you stay still it’s ok Your brain goes next Thoughts coming slow While joints stiff Then you slip To nothingness

Night brings darkness But also stars Day light fades To blackness deep Little joys scattered Not to keep Till dawn rises overhead And from despair Hope is there

… … … … I know that you love me I know that you care But I don’t deserve it I’m a terrible person And everyone knows it I’m a ugly mistake Unworthy of affection I’m an absolute failure I know that for truth So when you read this I would have jumped Finally closed my eyes You have something here though And you will find someone better So please don’t try to follow me Just know I really do love you And I couldn’t leave with a goodbye

Success is hard to achieve When failure comes so naturally My existence is cursed Never being good enough Love is not gifted but earned So I’m in short supply But redemption is possible Falters not permanent All I need is to try harder

I work so hard Both day and night Obey your rules Fallow your wishes

I work so hard To earn your praise For you to love me And be proud

I work so hard But in the end No matter what I do I will never be good enough for you