I get up in the morning Get all dressed up and ready The picture perfect person With a beautiful little life I sit all alone But will achieve greatness Because that’s what’s expected I get all A+s Anything less is a failure I’m polite and quite quiet The model student And when school is over And all extracurriculars are done I go back home Straight to my room I take off the facade I sit there and stare I only eat at school Just to be normal At home I just sit In the darkness and silence Sometimes I cry Others I scream On occasions I cut But don’t be alarmed Everything is just As it is meant to be

We grow up together Always so close I made you a promise Said we’d be together I told you forever We were just kids And now that we’re older I don’t think it’s working You feel the same We’re just afraid to admit it Our friendship could break Without this tether But I like a guy now And I think you like a girl So should we keep our promise Or should we be true to ourselves And let it break

We learn from those around us We learn from those before us We learn from our ancestors and from history Even when we’re gone our knowledge stays For others to learn from Even the dead tell stories

I wonder Do you know how much I try The effort I put into my work Do you know how much I long for your approval For you to say I’ve done well

No of course you don’t You only see my faults The shortcomings in my work How YOU think I don’t try How YOU think I’m not enough

But I know I can be good enough I know I try I know I put in the effort I know how much it hurts for you to tear me down For you to say I don’t work hard enough

For once could you tell me I’ve done well Give my work appreciation Focus on the strengths Lift me high And tell me my work is good

Could you pretend to care how your words affect me How your words make me feel like crying Could you for once see what I’ve done And not what I could do Why is your approval so far out of reach

When you say forever It can be astronomical You could be happier then ever It can also be catastrophic You could be left alone So just be careful When you choose the say forever

Your love is like nightshade Sweet to the taste But a deadly poison Confusing my mind Numbing the pain To much could be fatal But I stay all the same I’m cautious and careful Never letting you get to close One day you may kill me But till then I’ll be here Loving you to the end

The sky is shadowed in gray Just like the night

A storm is gathering See on the horizon

The day will be tough You can already tell

As wind starts picking up And rain pores down

Of course the sky is actually sunny The storm just in my head

But all I see is gray Todays a bad day

Rainbows and ponys Goblins and fairies Adventure and romance A heart racing tale On a journey of friendship To good to be true We play in a meadow Explore the swamp Until you have to leave And our exploration pauses Till tomorrow when you come over again

My heart is racing My chest throbbing But I can’t stop runing I run and run and run Through the forest Away from the beast Until I reach a creek I jump in and start to swim It’s chasing close behind One thought echos in my mind SURVIVE

My heart hurts Chest heavy Hot tears streaming Lungs burning As I scream at you “Look what you’ve done” “How could you do this” “You’re a monster” You broke my trust Destroyed it all So leave I can’t stand your face