don’t let yourself float away to the moon

or you’ll miss the flowers under your feet that

bloom

you were so loving once,

upon my bed i lay,

feet kicking

as you typed my doubt away

as you called me beautiful as you called me yours

i miss it

you were so perfect once,

so perfect that it was easy to ignore how

everyone around me hated you

i wish you were still perfect

maybe then i wouldn’t have had to say goodbye

you are my everything

why aren’t i yours?

you tell me that you’re doing your best,

but your best was over the summer when

i was everything to you

when did i become nothing

so unimportant that you stopped texting

stopped calling

you said you were doing your best

you said i just got used to it and now i want more

i deserve more but i want you

i want you to told me in yours arms and kiss me

and tell me how much i matter to you

but you forgot how

i took down all your pictures off my wall

and it hurts to see how empty it is,

that’s how my heart feels

my mom tells me she loves me

and i hate hearing it because it reminds me

of how you’ll never say those words to me again

i just wanted to be your everything

because you are mine

i’m tired of the tears streaming down my cheeks

i’m tired of feeling like this

my heart aching my chest so tight

it’s like i’ve forgotten how to breath

i don’t how to sleep without

your goodnight texts at night

it was a mistake to say goodbye to you

rationally i know it wasn’t but emotionally

i crave you hate myself for letting you go

i let myself float away to the moon

and now i miss the flowers that once

blossomed under my feet

and instead now

melt to ash