pounding my brain is pulsing

it hurts your words flood in one ear

out the other

a drug that isn't addicting yet just as awful

eyes droop heads sink

“pick your heads up and pay attention”

how can i when i’ve spent all night doing the work you assigned me

the ink of my pen smeared with my sleepless nights

and strangled breaths crushed by the weight of my backpack

and you expect me to focus?

the only...

“he will give you death

and you will love him for it”

they warned me

they all told me not to do it

told me it would only end in hurt

i was better i was too good for him

he wouldn’t know how to treat me

they were right

he gave me death

and i

i loved him

for it...

i know every detail about every version of herself she has ever been

and ever will be

i know the way her hair is smooth and shiny in my hands

i know the way her eyes crinkle when she smiles

and i know the way her heart runs across the world

dancing miles around yours, wishing the bubbles

of you typing would appear on her screen

even if she says she doesn’t care

i know she does

because we’re the sa...

who are we when no one is watching?

as for me,

does my bubbly facade fall?

is it a facade or is it true,

do i cry in my room tears that stain my pillowcase

from nights late with anguish

or do i smile to myself thinking of you?

maybe i would, if i had anyone to think about

no, rather i lay on my bed and stare up at my ceiling,

wondering questioning

thinking

why can no one seem to love me properly?

...

don’t let yourself float away to the moon

or you’ll miss the flowers under your feet that

bloom

you were so loving once,

upon my bed i lay,

feet kicking

as you typed my doubt away

as you called me beautiful as you called me yours

i miss it

you were so perfect once,

so perfect that it was easy to ignore how

everyone around me hated you

i wish you were still perfect

maybe then i wouldn’t have had...

we broke up

new year new me...

the sun grows weary

of seeing men squander its light

one man

wasting the glow that radiats from her skin

waste of space

waste of time

he treats her like she’s merely a

trail of his stardust

rather than the blazing glory that she is

the sun grows annoyed

at the words the man throws her way,

for she is not as important as him,

but the sun doesn’t speak

as she doesn’t want her burning beauty

to sca...

i never saw those smiles in the hall that you supposedly gave me with your friends

maybe i was the one who stopped talking

but you stopped loving me last year

when you made me feel like i wasn’t worthy

to be in your little group

“i just wanted to protect you”

bullshit i thought you hated me

what’s wrong with me why do all of my friends

decide i’m not good enough?

i started to question if it was t...

i didn’t talk because i was scared

scared of the pain that i felt last year,

scared of how you didn’t text me all summer,

didn’t try to see me

i felt like a fool, thinking what we had was special, something important to you

at least now you know that i still love you,

sadness washing over me every time you walked by

i wonder if we’re too broken to be fixed

but you if you try

i will too...

you know it would be easier to believe you missed me

if you treated me like an actual person last year

not some dirt under your shoe

maybe i hurt you before too

but i made up for it

i tried

i said sorry and meant it

and more than that, i fixed it

i made you feel loved

you made me feel like im not good enough

my love for you is never gone

i just pretend that it is,

shoving down as you wisk by me ...