i didn’t talk because i was scared

scared of the pain that i felt last year,

scared of how you didn’t text me all summer,

didn’t try to see me

i felt like a fool, thinking what we had was special, something important to you

at least now you know that i still love you,

sadness washing over me every time you walked by

i wonder if we’re too broken to be fixed

but you if you try

i will too...

you know it would be easier to believe you missed me

if you treated me like an actual person last year

not some dirt under your shoe

maybe i hurt you before too

but i made up for it

i tried

i said sorry and meant it

and more than that, i fixed it

i made you feel loved

you made me feel like im not good enough

my love for you is never gone

i just pretend that it is,

shoving down as you wisk by me ...

we used to have a promise drawn up with our blood,

my tears swirling with your smiles,

whispers of secrets in the dark

i thought we were forever,

your fingers wrapped up in mine as we

skipped through the woods by your house,

rollerblades swishing against the cool pavement,

snow in our hair sledding down hills

i should be over it,

over you and your toxicity that

bled down my arms as i begged you...

while chasing your ghost i became one myself

you are everything he wanted you to be,

so smart those wings that lift you up

are made of papers with a glowing

A+

on them

so calm you would never cry or breath too much your heart would never go a mile a minute

he wants you who only smiles and listens to him

berate and slam and hate on you

but i’m only trying my best

your ghost i can only chase

circle...

if i had a rose for

every time i thought of you,

i would wander through that garden

forever

this world is full of poets,

but you yourself are poetry and i think

it’s beautiful,

the way your eyes sparkle

when you talk about the things

you love,

the way you smile when you look at me

you say i seem so happy

but baby, how could i not

when your laugh makes my heart glow,

beating with adoration

no matt...

i

would

be

anything

for

you

shapeshifter at your command,

my brain melding with the thoughts you put

into words,

who do you want me to be?

i want to be yours, so tell me who i

need to be today

i could be silly,

i could be stoic and poised,

elegant,

crazy

sad

jealous

i can take taylor swift

off my playlists

i can watch star wars in its entirety,

movie after movie

i can take notes to remember...

“Bro she’s literally just paranoid. You didn’t even do anything wrong. Now let’s go clubbing.”

“Girl, he’s an asshole. You deserve better. Let’s watch sad movies and cry.”...

it was the most wonderful thing

butterflies flying

worlds around the sun

in my heart

your lips pressed against mine,

interlocking,

arm around my waist,

hand around your neck

pulling me in closer so you could taste me

deeper, sweeter,

savoring the flavor of my watermelon lip gloss

curled up against you, you hug me closer to you

i bring my face closer to yours,

kiss me again,

i’m begging you

i d...

i want your mouth on mine,

hands in my hair,

arms around your neck

i want you smiling against

my lips

your happiness mixing with my love

the same way our saliva does

you’re so careful with me

be rough, i want you rough

backed up against a wall,

gazing at your eyes,

i want to see how hungry you are for me

i want your mouth against mine,

that fluttering in my core that won’t go away

flaring at yo...

roses drippimg drops of chloroform into my

eyes nose mouth ears

blood leaking from every crevice in my skin,

dents left by my nails

drugging me with your words and dragging me

to hell with your love

wrapping your arms around me,

promises flooding out of your mouth and filling my

stupid nonsensical mind

_gullible_

old wounds have since sealed but you threaten

to tear open the stitches and twirl...