_Everything is just as it is meant to be _

Oh

Oh okay

I don’t know what to say

Everyone’s trying to be positive

And they want me to be positive too

They don’t want to see my tears of a river

Or the pain of my heart and thoughts

They want me to bounce back

Bounce back like nothing ever happened

But aren’t you concerned?

Aren’t you concerned when I show no emotion when you mention his name

Or when you bring up those painful last moments

Don’t you notice?

How I’ve shut down

The look on my face when he comes up in conversation

Is blank

Stare off into the distance

Blank

Because I know you don’t want to see my tears

I know you don’t want to see my pain

So I’ll sit here

In silence

Creating a distance between myself and my emotions

I can’t talk about him without the waterfall of tears crashing over me

And if you don’t want to see that

This is my only choice

To blank out

And hope I disappear

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I wanted this to go in a different direction but this is what came out instead. Which is perfectly fine, I’m not mad about it at all. But I may come back to this prompt down the road and see what else I can do with it. Anyways, thank you for reading 🩵