_Everything is just as it is meant to be _

Oh Oh okay I don’t know what to say

Everyone’s trying to be positive And they want me to be positive too They don’t want to see my tears of a river Or the pain of my heart and thoughts

They want me to bounce back Bounce back like nothing ever happened But aren’t you concerned? Aren’t you concerned when I show no emotion when you mention his name Or when you bring up those painful last moments

Don’t you notice? How I’ve shut down The look on my face when he comes up in conversation Is blank Stare off into the distance Blank

Because I know you don’t want to see my tears I know you don’t want to see my pain So I’ll sit here In silence Creating a distance between myself and my emotions

I can’t talk about him without the waterfall of tears crashing over me And if you don’t want to see that This is my only choice To blank out And hope I disappear

• • • I wanted this to go in a different direction but this is what came out instead. Which is perfectly fine, I’m not mad about it at all. But I may come back to this prompt down the road and see what else I can do with it. Anyways, thank you for reading 🩵