When I tell you how pathetic I am
Promise you won’t laugh at me
when I tell you how pathetic I am
when I tell you how horrible I think it is
this life I mean
if I even make sense
trying to describe my feelings
the feelings which just grow and grow
and don’t fall out to my mouth
just stay in my head
so promise you won’t laugh at me
when I tell you how horrible I think I am
how I am afraid to hurt
even though I always hurt
because of myself
because of my pinball feelings
which either shoot out my mouth
or stay in my head- and multiply into
a million feelings and emotions
so promise you won’t laugh at me
when I tell you how I feel like a pin doll
pins stuck in my heart
pins stuck in my arms
pins stuck in my brain
which cause blood
and when the pins move
dragging across my skin
that they cause bloody scars
how I feel like my whole body is in pins
and how I feel like a puppet
just made for design
not made to understand and keep other people’s feelings
not made to fix people’s problems
just made to cause myself more problems
sticking more pins in me
so please
promise you won’t laugh