not long ago now

i was infected with a pattern.

it spawned like a cancer

why should i do it any other way?

just a little poison frog in a rainforest

but soon it seeps

into the water

into my blood

i deserve only the hell i made

when did it become a hell?

did i burn these bridges?

must i choke on this poison fire

and call it breathing?

i don’t remember

how to break a pattern.

i wish the fire was clean

and could wash off this hell.