I buy her a toy

She just plays with the bag!

I buy her a bed, she plays with the box it came in.

Shes a character

But, I love her to death

She is family!

She wants to only sleep with me

Even when there’s no room

She jumps and wiggles

To find a spot. Surely, makes herself comfortable.

She needs to feel my touch

Around dark,

the petting comes.The brush comes out

While I’m watching TV

She purrs, ...

I wish I was pretty

but not just pretty

beautiful

not just turning heads

breaking necks

dazzling the room

so gorgeous that they aren’t even

able to take their eyes off of me

I want to be that kind of beautiful

to be able to look in the mirror

and smile at my own face

instead of focusing on the imperfections

the acne

the redness

the stray eyebrow hairs

the dry lips

the eyes tired of crying

the une...

I turned over in bed and there she was.

She’s 12 years old and missing a few teeth.

Making little noises as she breathes.

She’s 8 pounds of white fluff.

**I find white hairs all over of my stuff. **

****

She snores every night in her sleep.

Every little memory I will forever keep.

The sound of her paws running on hard wood floor are etched into my brain.

She keeps me grounded and sane.

Her eyes...

I tried to reveal the carvings in the mute earth coughing up the oxygen again and again.

He is the river of light who i love and who i cling to while your wounds ripple.

I remember building a energy shield in your room tall as a pilgrim tree near the first little angle.

I want to drop my arms and take ur arm as we walk by the shore

**Little dove,** soft in your in your newborn skin, only one...

Ten small fingers attached to two small hands

Feeling new textures, grabbing on to their new lives

Ten small chubby toes attached to two feet

Kicking to the next milestone

Two beautiful eyes placed perfectly on a smal face

Gleaming with joy and love

One small mouth

Stretched wide to create the most beautiful smile, a jumpstart for the heart

How could something so small fill your heart so full...

Something so tiny

If you look at it that way

To me it’s something big

Let it see the light of day

Turn the stove on

Get out a pot

Fill it with water

I can’t be stopped

Ramen

When I eat it I say

Ramen

You are more than okay

Beef is great

Chicken’s okay

Soy sauce too

Ramen all the way

I wish I could eat ramen

Every day

I wish that would be

That would be okay

The noodles make me cry

Tears that a...

You said two words

A decade ago

Yet makes me

Feel as my existence is

meaningless

“We’re done”...

The look he gives me.

Playful. Mischievous. Daring.

What goes on behind those eyes? What goes on when he ignores me? Or when he invades my personal space?

To think, one day, his presence will no longer be felt.

His scratches, his bites, his meows.

How can something so small take up so much of my heart?

My dear Walter Mittens....

It has an old gold frame, a year etched into it.

I remember that year, as if it were yesterday.

It has a face so memorable that it hurts.

It wasn’t the place, but rather the way,

the way we got there, slathered in dirt.

2022 - Summer camp in Oklahoma,

I’d never really had many friends, none at all.

July came by, I was prepping for school,

I was waiting for days to be shoved in the halls,

but camp...

He’s just a tiny person now

He takes no room at all.

But every time I look at him

My heart to me does call.

I know I ever love his mother

But of this I don’t know a thing

I never would have imagined

What new love a child could bring.

For the love I feel for my new child

Is different than for his mother

For when I said the day we wed

That I could not love another

I did not know the capacity

Of the...