I had never really fit in, but there was always this one guy I could talk to. But as I slowly came to terms with what I just did, I couldn’t help but feel regret for what I did. Nathan, a pleasant young soul, now sinking under the water cause of what I did. He almost looked betrayed and hurt while sinking under. I didn’t understand what he meant at the time, but I understand it now. He didn’t deserve this, his poor soul just thought of me as the only person he could talk to, and all I did was drown the poor guy. If only I listened, he’d still be alive. As I stare at him sinking, I start to wonder when I even got so angry, maybe it was cause he said he was gaslighting me for a good reason. He always had a terrible way with words. Or maybe it was cause he was robbing me of my time. Either way, I didn’t understand until it was too late. I had always thought of Nathan as a brother, the way he treated me seems like something a family member would. But Now there he is, sinking in the lake, where he could be for an eternity.