roses drippimg drops of chloroform into my

eyes nose mouth ears

blood leaking from every crevice in my skin,

dents left by my nails

drugging me with your words and dragging me

to hell with your love

wrapping your arms around me,

promises flooding out of your mouth and filling my

stupid nonsensical mind

_gullible_

old wounds have since sealed but you threaten

to tear open the stitches and twirl your fingers

in the river of my veins, pulsing and skittering away

from your poison

i tear out my hair, trying to scrape out the lies you scrawled across the walls in my head

i can’t

i don’t hate you

i can’t pour my energy into keeping something so clearly dead alive anymore

i can’t be the only one trying

i miss you

i miss who you used to be