Tw: eating disorders

Deflation is my air

Hunger is my fuel

To power through my days

At the loneliest high school

-2

I want the warmth of friendship but

Their cold shoulders rub me raw

But perhaps they’ll finally see me

If I have a body without flaw

-4.2

So I eat an apple slowly

Block all memory of the past

Make my body worth a boy

So they’ll want to hang with me at last

+1

Lunch? What’s that?

Go to the library instead!

Do some homework to fill the void

So I don’t wish that I was dead

-2.8

It’s poison that it’s working

But its so hard to understand

That it’s danger what I’m doing

Now with red solo cups in hand

-3.2

I could totally stop this now

But I’m not sure why I would

When everyone and their mother

Tells me “wow you look so good!”

0

There’s elation in control

Power I’ve never felt before

Because in being so much less of me

I just know that I’ll have more