It’s right there. Just grab it.

No, I’m on my diet!

But… _it’s right there…_

__

I promised myself on my new year resolutions I would eat healthier!

_But it’s right there and I’m so hungry…_

__

It’s midnight, fool! Go to bed now!

_No… I’d rather stay up and pretend to be productive…_

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You’re gonna be the end of me.

_I’ll be glad to be it, killjoy…_

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Ugh.

_Hmph…_

(I have eaten ice cream multipl...

Its an itch

Its so hard to resist

I have to do it

Bounce

Bounce

Bounce

I bounce my leg

To relieve the dread

But it doesn’t really work,

Does it?

I often feel in the wrong

Or as if someone is mad

Are they really mad?

Or is it a trick my mind plays?

Either way I say sorry

I say sorry too much

sorry

sorry

sorry

But people roll their eyes

I can’t stop saying sorry

I promise ...

I stare at my phone with burning eyes

Your haunting text in all its glory stares back at me with an impish smile

You’re mocking me without lifting a finger

It hasn’t been a month or a year, but a week

The wound is still fresh, in desperate need of stitches

Or rather, attention

The painful words ring deep in my soul

_We shouldn’t see each other anymore_

_I don’t see us as long-term_

It’s like the ...

I cannot find a place to get away from all the sound.

Everywhere I try to go is just so fucking loud.

It bleeds into my lungs and it makes it hurt to breathe.

And the only thought that I can think is that I want to leave.

To escape the booming, deafening sound.

To find a way to stick around.

My throat is sore, my body aches.

I don’t know how much more I can take.

I try to fight and yell and sc...

Try to hold myself

Back,

To fight against

My instincts.

I must find

The willpower

To do

What is right,

To resist my

Temptation

And make it

Through the night.

It seems impossible

To resist you,

Though I must,

For it would be

An act most foul

To give in

To my temptation.

I must try

And if I fail,

I’ll lose it all,

But worst of all,

I’ll lose you.

So for as long as I live,

I will not give

...

Perfect surplus

Triumphant urges trump courage

Syrups curb purges

Thirsts worsen

Splurges curtain purpose...

I say I still suffer

But I no longer pick my nails

As white as they are now

They have started to return

Dirt in the bedding

Spots on the ivory

Shown struggle from years

Where I would scrap all the fiber

I made a promise some years ago

That when I switch the timing

Stop wasting what should grow

Then happiness would find me

But what I barely knew

What I didn’t expect

Was the wealth of...

I like you

I really do

but I shouldn’t

it’s dumb

it’s stupid

I’m being an idiot

you probably like her

you don’t notice me

you never will

but _ugh_, your EYES

no

it doesn’t matter

it’s never going to happen

I mean, look at you

and look at me

I have no chance

but _ugh_, your SMILE

you’re so agKajsAbrFaPxMbgGaga

NO

STOP IT

I have to stop this

the more I fall

the harder it’ll be to get over you

the ...

I’m fighting off the demons in my sleep

I pray to God my soul is his too keep

I really hope it’s not too late for me

But I’m starting to think I’m in too deep

Uh bourbon sipper

Pill popper

Fucking up my liver

Oh my liver my poor liver

But without it I get

shivers shivers shivers

Withdraws make me feel like I’m slowly dying

Withdraws make me wanna die quicker

Devil in the red dress hopp...

For this to catch your attention

I would like to start at the beginning

Pull up a chair and get ready to listen

So I can intrude you on

What you’ve been missing

Daydreaming about you

Gives me a sense of sensation

I fantasize about you teasing me

Unconditionally

As I elude you so I can appeal appeasing

The thought of your touch igniting and rushing into me

Not for a second will I feel une...