They always tell me to stay ; it ill be fun they say. But I know they’re lying deep down but all I can do is frown to wipe away another tear as I welcome a new year . What will that year hold ?we’ll soon the story will unfold , just settle in get ready for the cold .

I’m expecting the worst at this point ; I might as well be a curse . My mind has me wishing to be in a hearse to get rid of this sick existence . I never welcomed these thoughts , but atleast they’re persistent .

i keep on trying , but the reality is I just want to die . I’m tired of everyone saying it’ll get better as my days turn wetter . Im flooded with fear day after day , as it leave me in dismay .

They say I’m depressed as they label me and send me on my way , a person too stressed to cope or atleast that what she says . They don’t care unless you take it too far as you leap and drown in a heap of blood ; all they want is one less problem for you to be gone for good .

But don’t you know they only want to help let me share what you said are you sure you want to be dead ? Think about your family , they care . don’t you dare ! They’re the ones that caused this mess as they pressed their opinions and blamed me for trying to make myself better .

Think about your future that will all be gone. You mean the one I haven’t even planned ? I can’t even stand to imagine my days being filled with more gloom cause let be honest , I’m destined for doom .

I made a mistake I don’t want to wake up I don’t think it normal to want to give up . I wish my life was a dream one that i could wake up from as I let out a scream .

( the punctuation ain’t the best 😂 but also not great at it lol )