I look back

through an album of memories

And my heart weeps

Through the cracks

Left by unseen enemies

Left be me

I’m letting them have their clown

A dancing monkey

Sit up straight, don’t frown

It’s all about the money

You’ll thank me when you’re older

Just do what I say, ok

Be my clown

I can’t breathe

Chest chained in anxiety

They can’t see me

I’m lonely

only picture an symphony

To ease me.... ease the pain

I’m letting them have their clown

A dancing monkey

Sit up straight, don’t frown

It’s all about the money

You’ll thank me when you’re older

Just do what I say, ok

Be my clown

How long will I hide away

The spark you gave to me.

At night I just lie awake

Trying to numb the pain in me

Trying the worlds way to be free.

Be the clown who always hated me.

I just want to be free.