Eyes wide open

Staring at a strange sky

I look around

surrounded by what I don’t know

How am I still alive

Tell me the reason why

I’m out here alone

Surrounded by people I don’t know...

I drove to see the future

And found my past as well

Emotions like before that

Pulled me back in to tell

I’ve walked too long, I’m tired now

I fear I’m too far gone

Emotionless, I’m faded now

...

I could hear it in the distance

only hear it you listen closely

“Help me, help me”

My dream i’ve sold it suffocating slowly

You can find me in the highlights

The what ifs in vacant eyes

Daily, say to me

The choice I made was right

“You grew up, and saw sense”

That’s what she said

When you ripped out your own heart

And showed it to her.

How can I not be sad, lost in hate?

When I’m not heard...

Darkness, my old friend

If by friend you mean that friend who counts favour and investment the same

That friend who will intoxicate you and film the aftermath to shame you, like it’s a game

He’ll watch you cover yourself in filth, in drunken stopper with the promise of hiding you, just as long as he get to overshadow, rule, overrule the truth.

Darkness has creeped, busted, lusted, slandered, pan...

I have seen the glorious

Her face light up tears streaming,

silent in love as I take my place

His eyes bright, trying to hold back

But ending up crying as he places me.

I have seen the mundane,

Sitting on the side of that metal cascade

Watching them wash, and cook and clean

The way they move like they’re one being

Because they are.

I have seen the shameful

The fights, silent indifference

The ...

I look back

through an album of memories

And my heart weeps

Through the cracks

Left by unseen enemies

Left be me

I’m letting them have their clown

A dancing monkey

Sit up straight, don’t frown

It’s all about the money

You’ll thank me when you’re older

Just do what I say, ok

Be my clown

I can’t breathe

Chest chained in anxiety

They can’t see me

I’m lonely

only picture an symphony

To ease me.... e...