I could hear it in the distance only hear it you listen closely “Help me, help me” My dream i’ve sold it suffocating slowly
You can find me in the highlights The what ifs in vacant eyes Daily, say to me The choice I made was right
“You grew up, and saw sense” That’s what she said When you ripped out your own heart And showed it to her.
How can I not be sad, lost in hate? When I’m not heard. And how can I blame others When I hide?
Darkness, my old friend If by friend you mean that friend who counts favour and investment the same That friend who will intoxicate you and film the aftermath to shame you, like it’s a game He’ll watch you cover yourself in filth, in drunken stopper with the promise of hiding you, just as long as he get to overshadow, rule, overrule the truth.
Darkness has creeped, busted, lusted, slandered, pandered and schemed its way into our hearts. He calls himself humanity now. He is not.
The truth is if you have light, he can’t touch you. Unless... you give it away.
I have seen the glorious Her face light up tears streaming, silent in love as I take my place His eyes bright, trying to hold back But ending up crying as he places me.
I have seen the mundane, Sitting on the side of that metal cascade Watching them wash, and cook and clean The way they move like they’re one being Because they are.
I have seen the shameful The fights, silent indifference The things that come to kill love But make it seem like the other is the culprit Leaving their eyes on me in that unsettling way Where for the first time I’m afraid of sitting on the side
I have seen the painful.. Loss, betrayal. The frailty of the human heart Now, just another cascade longing to be filled Fulfilled by any counterfeit available But it never works.
I still see Hope resembling my shimmer Dimmer in their eyes but worth the yes His love cannot be killed lost or broken He was.. all the above He paid it all to redeem humanity and reintroduce then with real love. A demonstration of how he never leaves, never gets tired, is always knocking, looking for his beloved, even when she is broken, when she wants to hide he imperfections.
When I rest on their fingers lifted high to him. I know I’m safe.
I look back through an album of memories And my heart weeps Through the cracks Left by unseen enemies Left be me
I’m letting them have their clown A dancing monkey Sit up straight, don’t frown It’s all about the money You’ll thank me when you’re older Just do what I say, ok Be my clown
I can’t breathe Chest chained in anxiety They can’t see me I’m lonely only picture an symphony To ease me.... ease the pain
I’m letting them have their clown A dancing monkey Sit up straight, don’t frown It’s all about the money You’ll thank me when you’re older Just do what I say, ok Be my clown
How long will I hide away The spark you gave to me. At night I just lie awake Trying to numb the pain in me Trying the worlds way to be free.
Be the clown who always hated me.
I just want to be free.