Avoiding Familiar Places
My friends suggested going to the beach.
i didn’t want to go. I tried to avoid it.
I don’t know why.
But then today I was thinking about the beach.
I had anohter nightmare last night,
So I was more prone to getting stuck in the past,
And you were there at the beach,
I kept seeing the memory.
Memories I guess.
You were stuck in my head.
And it made me anxious,
It made me wary.
I know that I need to build new memories,
So that these aren’t scary places,
But give me a break.
A little more time.
It’s hard.
It’s not an easy thing to deal with.
Some kids my age will tell me that they understand,
From personal experience and such.
But I find that so hard to believe.
It’s not like she was just mean.
Everyone deals with somebody mean.
The signs are pointing to PTSD.
I need some new memories at the beach.