I know it’s not fair to you to feel this way. I know my pain only stifles you. If only you could understand what you mean to me. You are my shining light. Without you I am darkness. I am nothing. I cease to exist. I am a void. But when I think of you, when I see you, when you are near, my soul comes to life. I find colors in my world. I am no longer darkness. I am swimming in the dark blue oceans. I am flying in the bluest skies. I smell the blooming flowers and radiate the sun they crave. All because of you. But you don’t understand what that means. Your joy is not with me. Your smile is not for me. Your happiness is not because of me. Your obligations are to me and nothing more. I tether you for selfish reasons because you give me life. I gave you life but it does not mean you belong to me. I am meant to love you and nurture you to growth and prosperity. How cruel it is to be expected to share and to release.