Happy
It was that last day of school today.
I should feel something… right?
Not this awful numbness.
The really sad thing is,
Today was a great day.
The entire time at school,
I was smiles and joy.
I have a great (BETTER than great) girlfriend,
And my life is…
Actually going well.
So what’s wrong with me?
What happened?
I want to scream at the world,
“What did you do wrong?
What happened to make _me_?”
More than that, though,
I want to scream at myself,
“_Why are you never satisfied?_”
I have everything anyone could want.
Yet I’m still like this.
I have no reason to feel this way.
I don’t deserve the good things I have,
And I don’t deserve to be upset over the bad.
So what the frick is wrong with me?
Why does every single thing I do hurt?
Why can’t I…
Why can’t I just be happy?