(trigger warning: contains mentions of self harm, eating disorders and peer pressure/manipulation)

my soul stings

so do my wrists.

my heart aches

so does my stomach.

i damage myself for your attention

when i’m with you i feel dizzy, like a ragdoll being swung around.

when i’m without you i feel sick, like that ragdoll when it hits the ground.

i know when i think of you, i think of kissing you, even though i know if you loved me like that you would hurt me more.

i know if i told my family they would tell me to run.

and i know you don’t care about me and i would be better off without you.

but i come crawling to you like that ragdoll, because i have nowhere else to go.