I often try to put gaps between my words that I write about you

I try to not show an overwhelming amount of my grief

Because honestly

There’s a tunnel of Grief inside me that goes far too deep

When I don’t want to share you with the world

Keep you for myself

I share about my other struggles

Which is okay

Those are important too

But then the need to share my grief

My need to share you

Becomes far too much

Far too in my face

To the point where I can’t help but say something

Share my pain

And hope

Wish that Maybe I’ll convince myself that I’m not so alone Maybe I’ll keep you here with me longer If I just share you and stop convincing myself that you were never here So I share you with the world of strangers I will never meet

Although it’s funny Because they seem to hold me with open arms Show me more love than some of my old “friends” That That was the only lesson I ever needed to learn

And every time I share you with people I feel Lighter As if a weight has just lifted off of me

However sooner or later That weight will come back Towering over me And there’s nothing left to do but Share him with the world

Then maybe one day One day I’ll share him Share him and the person he was instead of the pain that he left me with

• • • • Yeahhh so this is true. I write a lot about grief and sometimes i get a little worried when sharing it. Therefore I try to not write about it too much. Which can be good because then I’m forced to create other ideas. But anywayssss. Thank you for reading and showing support. It means the world 💙