Sharing You
I often try to put gaps between my words that I write about you
I try to not show an overwhelming amount of my grief
Because honestly
There’s a tunnel of Grief inside me that goes far too deep
When I don’t want to share you with the world
Keep you for myself
I share about my other struggles
Which is okay
Those are important too
But then the need to share my grief
My need to share you
Becomes far too much
Far too in my face
To the point where I can’t help but say something
Share my pain
And hope
_Wish_ that
Maybe I’ll convince myself that I’m not so alone
Maybe I’ll keep you here with me longer
If I just share you and stop convincing myself that you were never here
So I share you with the world of strangers I will never meet
Although it’s funny
Because they seem to hold me with open arms
Show me more love than some of my old “friends”
That
That was the only lesson I ever needed to learn
And every time I share you with people
I feel
Lighter
As if a weight has just lifted off of me
However sooner or later
That weight will come back
Towering over me
And there’s nothing left to do but
Share him with the world
Then maybe one day
One day I’ll share him
Share _him_ and the person he was instead of the pain that he left me with
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Yeahhh so this is true. I write a lot about grief and sometimes i get a little worried when sharing it. Therefore I try to not write about it _too_ much. Which can be good because then I’m forced to create other ideas. But anywayssss. Thank you for reading and showing support. It means the world 💙