Nervous energy threatens to consume

as I desperately search for

the reassurance of your presence.

But in the back of my mind I know,

my searching eyes will stay searching

and my heart will grow heavy

with the weight of carrying this energy

without your support.

The piercing eyes of onlookers,

stab me sharper with the knowledge

that yours are not included.

I’m stuck here, baring myself to them,

these strangers i don’t know,

when it supposed to be to you.

I did it all for you.

Yet you’re not here.