Writing Prompt

I don’t know how to think for myself. My mind is loud with thoughts that never belong to me. I turn the desires of others into thoughts of my own. Is this what I want? It’s been so long and I can’t tell the difference. I’m afraid to be the reason someone leaves. Afraid that a “no” will sound too much like rejection and too much like unlove. I let people take pieces of me, hoping it’s enough to mak...

_You stupid, stupid girl._

_What did you think would happen?_

_What were you thinking?_

That’s the problem.

I wasn’t thinking.

I was _living_.

For a brief moment of my miserable life,

I was breathing and laughing and smiling and feeling and living.

I was so _alive_ that I forgot to think.

And now it’s hitting me like a train,

A force so real and heavy it’s crushing my chest.

I don’t know how I’m ...

You ever wake up with the craving for a certain food? Well, this morning all I’ve been thinking about is spaghetti. I know I dont have all the ingredients but I check the kitchen pantry anyways. Yeah, looks like I need to go to the grocery store. It’s a weekend so I have time to clean up my place, walk my dogs and maybe do a little gardening. My husband is already up and tinkering around in his ga...

I will spend the rest of my day

Stuck in this hourless corridor,

No clock to tell the minutes by,

Every second a wasted one.

And now the script remains unplayed --

A joyful scene now turns to horror;

The audience won't laugh, won't cry,

Won't see again this morning's gun.

Millions of phantoms float by my eyes

Through this graveyard of past plans failed

My spirits lifting, then falling with each

...

I don’t even know what to say

I can’t believe this is happening again

Please let it be a nightmare

But nightmares are better

Because those wake you up

This will be everyday...

I kick at the small pebble in front of me, it scatters down the street. As I make my way into work, my friend Avery walks by. Her preppy smile and joyful expression attempt to break through the shield of my frown. She waves.

I nod.

Far different from our usual giggles and squealing routine.

I brace myself and walk through the doorway of the tall office building. Immediately when I walk in I’m shov...

I can’t help but love

And look for things to love in the souls of others.

Love is the entire sky.

But to find another woman to love, I can’t just go to any bar

And wait to get hit on.

I have to sense the queer parts in the crevices of others,

And hope they’ll unlock them for me.

As a result, I’ve seen some shooting stars.

I excite them for a while.

But in the end,

I am always flowers wi...

Is this how it feels?

I sit alone

In my thoughts

Smiling to the one I love

I’ve waited for him so

but it seems he has to go.

So I lie

Stripped down yet sweating

And pick up that five eighty page story.

Yet despite the rain

I hear the TV, noisy as can be.

I have to stay, though. There’s light.

Hands scramble to smooth out the dog ears

Of these pages, so new.

It’s time to hide.

Return to my foster ...

All planned variables worked out right -

External factors, but my mind’s set alight;

The force field is back and my breathing feels tight:

In the end, it was me who’s the problem.

Up until now, it would have been okay;

T-minus 10 and my mind’s led astray -

I guess it’s all part of this cursed Thursday:

The path of success left untrodden.

I’ve no idea where all the time went:

It slipped through m...

(idk why but my brain is just in rhyme mode

but for this one i don’t want it to be

and it’s even trying to it for this

so i guess we’ll see)

(ps i just rhymed ugh)

I look around at all these kids

Baking cookies with their moms

Playing catch with their dads

While that’s something

I never had

So yeah, I guess it isn’t fair

That you aren’t allowed

To cut your hair

Just a few inches,

It gets in th...