Is this how it feels?

I sit alone

In my thoughts

Smiling to the one I love

I’ve waited for him so

but it seems he has to go.

So I lie

Stripped down yet sweating

And pick up that five eighty page story.

Yet despite the rain

I hear the TV, noisy as can be.

I have to stay, though. There’s light.

Hands scramble to smooth out the dog ears

Of these pages, so new.

It’s time to hide.

Return to my foster ...

All planned variables worked out right -

External factors, but my mind’s set alight;

The force field is back and my breathing feels tight:

In the end, it was me who’s the problem.

Up until now, it would have been okay;

T-minus 10 and my mind’s led astray -

I guess it’s all part of this cursed Thursday:

The path of success left untrodden.

I’ve no idea where all the time went:

It slipped through m...

(idk why but my brain is just in rhyme mode

but for this one i don’t want it to be

and it’s even trying to it for this

so i guess we’ll see)

(ps i just rhymed ugh)

I look around at all these kids

Baking cookies with their moms

Playing catch with their dads

While that’s something

I never had

So yeah, I guess it isn’t fair

That you aren’t allowed

To cut your hair

Just a few inches,

It gets in th...

Standing here,

Watching you go

The reason why,

I’ll never know

You were my brother,

My other half

The only one

Who could make me laugh

But who knew

We’d crash and burn

And you won’t be there

At the next turn

So here’s to memories

Flooding in my head

But I think your words

Should’ve been left unsaid

You called me a monster,

You did before

But I can’t stand you

As you leave me on the floor

Coughin...

Chapter 4, Week 2: Tuesday

For the second time this week, I am completely fine as I walk into the room. I take a seat, expressionless, waiting for the go-ahead. I eye the imposter, who keeps looking around and accidentally making eye contact with me. This causes me to glance away. I divert my attention to the board with the instructions. They are not completely clear. Obviously, this means I am g...

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“Are you ready to see what we got for science?” Emery asked scribbling down drawings in her sticker covered notebook.

“Omg yes! I had been studying all week for that test!” I exclaim not being able to sit still in my seat. The teacher comes around to pass our test scores to us, putting them ...

Chapter 4, Week 1: Monday

I sit at the desk, hair masking my face. My pen scratches away at the small paper in front of me, writing in a code that no one understands. 'Everything right is wrong again,' it reads. Of course, only I would know that. My brain broadcasts thoughts upward. 'What happened? I thought you were going to protect me.' This is just culture shock. I know it is. Give me a week, ...

Blue is the color of Valentine’s Day

The holiday didn’t even used to register for me

Because I was so sure I was going to find someone

But now

I watch the TV and movie weddings of my favorite characters

And the glow of the screen paints me the most intense shade of blue

Because the truth is starting to creep up on me with the intensity of lemon juice and the inevitability of a sunrise:

Tha...

Gray sat among the ivy ferns that tickled his paws.

Would he ever see Lilac again?

Oh, how could he miss her?

She abandoned him for some loner, and left her birth tribe.

She was not to trust be missed.

So why did Gray miss her?

His mond felt like a pool of doubt,

A worm of worry crawled through his body, but what was he thinking? She was no good.

He was losing sight of his reality, even though it...

Nervous energy threatens to consume

as I desperately search for

the reassurance of your presence.

But in the back of my mind I know,

my searching eyes will stay searching

and my heart will grow heavy

with the weight of carrying this energy

without your support.

The piercing eyes of onlookers,

stab me sharper with the knowledge

that yours are not included.

I’m stuck here, baring myself to the...