escape
i woke up with a bang
the feeling of past shame
i am not her yet i feel like i am
the label of slut painted on my face
for i want to be loved for every part of me
my hair my eyes my smile even my personality
as long as im not used for my body i am content
but my mind will not allow me to run free
trapped in my bed
no motivation no empathy
no need to eat
staring at the blank page trying to feel my poetry
not just write it
you have to feel your words to process your emotions
it’s hard to explain the feeling of numb
hard to pin point when it begun
since my parents had left me to fend on my own i will alway feel the pain of alone
a nightmare that sounds similar to reality
listening to my mom as she screams
a nightmare that was reality
she never understood me
to hit me not hear me
every time i stood up i gained a little less fear
as every tear ran down my young face i knew older me would get out of that place
i would run as far as i could
to be missing is better than misunderstood
i would be my own mother if i had to i would
i would start a new life next to the cottonwood trees and maybe just then i would feel happy
fill the void with nature not drugs
that little girl just needed a hug
to be nurtured by her own mother sounded like a dream
that young girl turned into a fein
she was judged by everyone but she could not help it
the older girl needed a hug
but where was she to run too?
who did she have to run too?