It was you

From the first time I saw you

It was you

From the first time you kissed me

It was you

From the first time you held me

It was you

When I looked into your eyes

When I held your hand

When I traced your lips

It was always you

Even when life seemed uncertain

Even when my world was crashing down

For me,

It was always you

Even when we ended

I tried to ignore it

But it was still you

When I moved on

It was still you

When I got engaged

It was still you

When I ended my relationships

It was still you

Even when you got married

It was still you

Even when you had a son

It was still you

I don’t know how

For it to not be you

Now listen to me closely

I don’t want you to be confused

I don’t need anyone

I will not fall apart

On my own

I do not need you

In order to survive

I am not still in love with you

But I have a deep love for you

I always will

That won’t go away

So when I say

It’s still you

I mean it could only be you

I have no desire

To try and fall in love

With some stranger I haven’t met

I have no desire

To try and care for a new person

In that same way

So it’s still you

Ten years in the future

It will still be you

If you get married again

It will still be you

If you have another child

It will still be you

I don’t know how

To make it not be you

I’m afraid

You could be gone from this earth

And it would still only be you

That I could ever imagine myself with

And I know this is more a one way street

This certainly isn’t how you feel

But what kind of person am I

If I don’t tell you

How I feel

How I’ve always felt

It’s terrifying

To put those thought into words

But the only thing more terrifying than that

Is not telling you

Having to keep that inside

Forever

My silent thoughts will haunt me

Until I set them free

And letting you know

Might kill me

But I’d rather die all at once

Than slowly over the years

I’d rather tell you now

It’s you

It’s always been you

It will always be you

And I don’t know how

To exist without it being you