I never thought this would happen.

I’ve never fallen for anyone.

Ever.

But every single time I think about you,

I blush and it’s a complete disaster.

You’re able to melt away

The ice cold barrier

surrounding my heart.

When I see you smile,

It’s like the sun has come out for the very first time in ages.

And that happens every time.

No matter how much I’ve looked at you.

My greatest desire would be to have you for myself.

But-

I hope you do not feel the same.

I am a complete and utter mess.

And my love is not delicate, its disastrous.

Who would ever want me?

And I feel like you deserve better.

So I hope one day you find the man or the girl of your dreams.

And I hope you have a family,

And children,

And a lovely marriage.

I wish you the best. Even if I can’t be there with you.

For now, I’ll just keep looking at your smile.

That’s always enough to make my day.