“I don’t want to stick out like a weed in a field of wildflowers!” _She said trying her best too fix her plain brown hair and wipe away her acne._

“Who said you were a weed?” _Her mother says standing at the door of the bathroom her and her sister share._

“No one did! I’m just so plain and I have no idea how too look!” _She whines, the hairbrush she’s had as a kid getting stuck in her hair._ “I ...

“BUT IN ALL CHAOS, THERE IS CALCULATION!”

What am I calculating exactly?

How many times I’ve gone to the doctor because I tore my retina and I have to get another round of laser eye surgery.

How I have a minor concussion from getting slammed in the floor.

How I’ve bottled up so much stuff that my mind isn’t working.

Every few minutes I alsmost pass out either from the concussion or the emotio...

We aren’t partners yet.

We haven’t kissed yet.

We haven’t had a second date yet.

But we do share the same feelings.

We do share the same intrests.

We communicate our relationship.

He told me my name in Portuguese and somehow it sounds better when he says it instead of my other Brazilian friend.

He’s going to try to do my make up and paint my nail.

And I get to put star clips in his hair.

...

Aw do you miss me that much that I can’t be away for a few seconds?

_HEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEEHEH._

No dude I just gotta draw you and your all the way over there!

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ONE PHRASE AND IM KICKING MY FEET AND SQUEALING INTERNALLY.

HOW COULD ONE GUY TAKE SO MUCH SPACE?

I shouldn’t get too attached because what if something happens.

On the other hand there is a lot of evidence to prove he likes me back....

“Hey Kat you should meet my friend!”

“Okay!”

Now we text nonstop for a few hours each day. Then we meet at the mall.

After my friends says that it seemed she was third wheeling both of us…

Maybe it’s delusion but we did call yesterday and now today for almost the entire day.

Maybe it’s delusion but he’s pretty cute.

I met a boy.

A nice boy.

Maybe… my boy....

When you live in a world of hate, you tend to cover who you are.

It’s only happens when you grow and understand the shows your parents watch.

And in a school where you feel so rare.

You tend to mask yourself just a notch.

So let me introduce myself.

I am Katherine, not Kaitlyn or any other name.

People say I have an interesting interpretation of life itself.

I seem to know more and mentally...

Christmas break is here, time to go see family.

Smile, Smile, Smile, SMILE, SMILE MOTHERFU-

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Depression.

The feeling of numbness and neglect combined with socially anxiety.

I tripped ah shit okay nothing happened that was embarrassing- I’m talking out loud. FU-

Why am I feeling the same as I did in middle school?

Why do I want to-

I’m stuck in my room, I forgot to eat.

Have I showered? ...

“You have ninety seconds to hide. If you are found, you die. Good luck.”

—

The person stands in the room, hands clenched and ready…. To absolutely cry.

“NINETY SECONDSSSSS!!!! WHERE AM I SUPPOSED TO HIDE WITH THAT TIME!”

They look around, “IM IN A BLANK ROOM! THERES LITERALLY NOTHING HERE!”

They just run around in circles, “AHGDGAHGAHHAH IM GONNA DIEEEE!”

Then something grabs their ankles.

“...

(This is my story and my essay I turned into my school. This may be taken down but I beg that it’s not)

Alone, again, sitting on the cold metal bench after trying to communicate. As always, my friends ignored me no matter how loud I was. After two years of middle school, I was done with it. Done with neglect, blank stares, and my friend’s problems. It got so bad that I wanted to die. It consumed ...

Five was walking into Griddys Donuts, more specifically Five Hargreeves. (FROM THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY AND THEY RUINED THE FOURTH SEASON FOR FIVE) Anyways Five sits down at the booth and got a coffee. Someone limps in, obviously taller than Five by a few inches. He observes the boy, he looked 17. Five himself was 58 in a 13 year olds body. The boy sits a seat away from Five.

“Sorry to bother you but...