Why does nobody like me?

Why am I so alone?

Why do I cry so much?

Why is my phone so dry?

Why can’t it be easier?

Man my search History must be interesting

I promise I am fine I swear

But I cross my fingers behind my back

And speak through gritted teeth

Can’t I be healthy?

Can’t someone take pity?

Can’t I be sure?

Can’t I have friends?

Can’t I be normal?

But I need to stop complaining

Zip my lips and leave it to my brain

To overthink when I try to sleep

And allow my tears to drain

Am I annoying?

Am I intimidating?

Am I boring?

Am I useless?

Am I mean?

Interesting how there is articles for every thing

But never for what you need

Wikihow help me now

Cause I don’t have friends that can tell me how

What does it mean when I am lonely?

What does it mean to have no friends?

What does it mean to dissociate?

What does it mean to feel this way?

What does it mean to be healthy?

I guess you can’t doctor google everything

Cause when that little box pops up

With my sad diagnosis

It just says to make friends

How to make friends?

How to love yourself?

How to be more active?

How to sleep better?

How to be more productive?

Books don’t help anymore

And nothing seems to have the answers

I examine every resource

And all the arrows point to major loser

What if I am lonely forever?

What if no one likes me?

What if people don’t accept me?

What if I am scared?

What if things never change?

The thoughts that inhabit my mind

A rabbit hole not to go down

A constant reminder

Of how much this hurts