……………There is something that

I want

Very

Very

Much

No it’s

Not

Mine

But I

Can’t Stop

My Mind

From Going

To that dark place

And When

I close My eyes

The bad Comes

And Then

It’s Too

Late To

Escape So

I don’t stop

Myself From

Losing Control

Over My

Mind My

Body My self.

It’s become something

More

Not

Just

A craving, an indulgence

It’s

A

NEED

I don’t know how to stop.