Why am I going backwards?

Rolling back down the hill

I just made my way up here

I hadn’t gotten my fill

I try to reach out

And make new connections

But they keep breaking apart

Into weird shaped sections

I can’t give everyone attention

At the very same time

I’ll try the best I can

Maybe I’ll cross the line

It was going really well

Friends and all

But ever since E & J broke up

My worlds begin to fall

I have been pushed backwards

When they made a group without me

But Yk maybe afterwards

They’ll realize they forgot me

Why do people keep drifting away

I need them to stop

I need them to stay

I need them all to stay where they are

So that I can make sure

They all know that theyre loved

And my love for them is pure

I’m not their best friend

I’m merely an option

But I would carry all their burdens

If they put them up for adoption

If I try to get closer to one

The other gets abandoned

My soaring social life

Has recently landed

How to make it fly?

I don’t really know

The best I can do

Is have it fly low

I had no friends

So I went and got more

But now they’re all leaving

And shutting the door

I need them to stay.

I need them in my life

I can’t go back to before

With a dead social life

I hope that they notice

That I’m feeling blue

Will anybody notice?

Will they ever get the clue?

For now I’ll be happy

Be the spunky mom friend

Try to weigh my options

Before my inevitable end

I’m going backwards

It used to be good

But now I’m going backwards

And I’m misunderstood

Rolling back down

I hope I don’t crash

Find a way to land soft

With merely a scratch

I miss the top

The peak of the hill

I don’t want to be happy

By taking a pill