Why am I going backwards?

Rolling back down the hill

I just made my way up here

I hadn’t gotten my fill

I try to reach out

And make new connections

But they keep breaking apart

Into weird shaped sections

I can’t give everyone attention

At the very same time

I’ll try the best I can

Maybe I’ll cross the line

It was going really well

Friends and all

But ever since E & J broke up

My worlds begin to...

**January**

Snow and tears

A brand new year

Seasonal depression

is my new fear

**February**

Loneliness or love

The years yet to decide

Whether you love to live

Or wish to die

**March**

Spring rolls in

Along with the flowers

Tired from school

In my room for hours

**April**

Rain and water

In supply

A little less salt

From tears cried

**May**

On the brink

On the horizon

The freedom I seek...

Who are we when no one is watching?

Who am _I_ when no one is watching.

I’m not sure who I am

I’m a shell of a human

Personality is scam

It’s all an illusion

I’m a mural of everything

Characters I wish I was

Songs that made me feel

Aesthetics I wanted cause

They made me seem more real

But it’s all façade

Just one big show

When you look out the window

And question what you know

Who am I?

Whe...

Railyn and Carter have been living together in Carters house for around a month.

Aiden and Tracy have an apartment about 20 mins away.

Today though, is the first time Aiden has contacted Railyn since she moved out.

Railyn and Carter are sitting on the couch cuddling while watching a movie. Railyns phone rings and while trying to grab it Carter throws it onto the other side of the couch.

“We’r...

Months pass. Carter and Railyn have a system. Tracy has “book club” every Friday night and Aiden goes to his friends house for “game night” every Friday. Theyre DEFINITELY together every Friday night.

But so are the other two.

~ - * - ~

Railyn sits at the counter, texting Carter. Aiden is grabbing his stuff for game night. He comes up to Railyn, his hands fighting with his lanyard.

“Uhm. Raily...

Railyn sits there as they talk. Still holding his hand. He was _her_ boyfriend but the way that he talking to Tracy brought doubt raining all over her parade.

They went to highschool together so it wasn’t odd for them to chat but normally you would talk to an old friend like you haven’t seen them in a while. The way Aiden talked to Tracy seemed like they have been talking to each other a lot rec...

Since when did

R J K P E

Become

J & E

P & K

And me?

In just two days

We went from one big group

Too two and two and lil single me

I mean I’m happy for my friends!

They finally got together

But now I’m kinda lonely

When Theyre too busy flirting with each other

I actually had a crush on J

But E did too

He took his pick

_And it wasn’t you_

I’m really okay

No need to ask

But playing nice and s...

Cold black feathers and widespread wings.

No matter the weather, it still sings.

I wonder what it feels like, up there is the sky.

If it’s as freeing as it seems or if it’s just another lie

Most people fear him yet some love him so

That would be thanks to Edgar Allan Poe...

Heart pump

Breath quick

Blood rush

Palms slick

Doubt creeps up my spine and wraps his cold, spiked hands around my neck.

Breathe

Faster

Hot tension fills my body as every muscle tenses.

My stomach drops and pulls in as fear joins the massacre that is my mind.

Fear slithers and wraps around my chest as doubt scratches at my throat.

Fear slices my rib cage and doubt seeps into the wounds. Doubt’s ...

Yea I have friends

And I have a friend group!

I think

It’s hard to tell

I join the conversation and they save me a seat

But when they talk to me ours eyes never meet

They said there was a party

They even said I could come

But the invite never came

And now I feel dumb

Are we friends?

Do you like me?

Or are you just politely tolerating me, hoping that I leave you alone.

I’ll treat you like we’re...