Giving Up

The sun comes up, I see it through the window.

But I have to force myself to get up.

I continue to keep sleeping even though I’m going to regret it.

I continue to not take a shower, not brush my hair, not eat, not brush my teeth. I continue to ignore the world around me as if it doesn’t exist.

I don’t feel like I’m living, I feel like I’m surviving. Everyday is a challenge and I get weaker and weaker. When was the last time I was happy?