I’m so sorry.

I’m so fricking sorry.

This is all my fault.

I hurt you,

I hurt you in the worst way possible,

And you forgave me.

You gave me a second chance,

One I didn’t deserve.

One I still don’t.

You gave me something I never earned,

Something I probably never will.

I’m just not enough.

I don’t know how to be.

I swear to you,

I’m not trying to be annoying or hurtful

Or rude

Or insulting

Or dramatic

Or any of the things I am.

I’m not trying to be stupid.

That’s just all I know how to be.

I don’t know how,

But I swear I’ll spend the rest of my life trying to earn your forgiveness.

Trying to prove I’m worth it -

Both to you and myself.

I’m so sorry.