A life without him I know all too well. It’s exhausting and repetitive An endless chase Searching here and there Everywhere Desperate to be loved by anyone but myself. I’m passed around Like a joint in the crowd Life without him is lackluster Dull in color and humor. Muffled dreams, unclear visions. I feel small I control my voice Afraid of being too loud Too potent Too much. Hush Hush now, girl Don’t waste your tears God has been preparing you for the love of your life Through all these painful years. I open my eyes To colors I didn’t know existed My heart soars each day As my spirit is lifted. Life with him Feels like I’m living in a dream. To love him, To be loved by him. I don’t want to live another day If I’m not walking with him Hand in hand, upstream.