You were the downfall of me.

Look how the timelines coincide.

For that year and a half,

You ruined my life.

Look at me back in the Winter.

I was mostly doing fine.

You were eating away at me slowly, yes,

But I couldn’t see the signs.

And then spring is when you pulled the trigger.

Shots fired in the dark.

I was confused,

Didn’t know if I should blame you,

But you were holding the gun,

I knew that much.

Spring is the first time I wanted to die.

After that the feeling didn’t leave my side.

I hated myself,

I hated the world,

I hated you,

I hated myself for hating you.

I hated myself.

And maybe I would’ve got there some other way,

But there was a dam in my mind.

It could’ve been unpacked slowly,

Not unleashed in a tidal wave,

Obliterated by your bare hands.

I drowned that night.

I’ve got all this anger now pent up inside.

I’d go berserk if I saw you in real life.

I can’t get these feelings to die.

It haunts me every fucking night.

People suck.

But you don’t just suck.

You are a monster.

And you don’t have claws or fangs,

So that makes you the most dangerous type.

I’m lucky I survived.

And I just barely survived.