At first glance

Our eyes met

It was as if something awakened in me

I took a step back fearful of what this could be

Because of the shattered pieces of my past

Still lingering inside of me

You promised never to hurt me

Even when I pushed you away

With each attempt, you promised to stay

Our lives intertwined in that moment

You got on your knees

Promising the world

Along with eternity to me

A beautiful ring also a birthday present

Our lives become one

No need to second guess it

For once I felt peace..

That peace wasn’t meant for me

I felt unease, you assured me not to worry

But these feelings kept festering

Now I’m left to question

What I didn’t see?

That was clearly right infront of me

The deception and misdirection

I accepted to have the security I expected

From the one who swore his vow to love me

Who did I marry?

I’m left questioning

You don’t seem the same to me

Quiet nights at home,

Now spent totally alone

Thinking about how this went so astray

What signs did I miss along the way?

Did I ignore them on purpose?

I guess I will never know

Maybe I was afraid to break this

Appearance of a happy home

Strangers under the same roof

How it is vs how it should be

Look completely different to me

I feel no sadness or remorse

My soul is, still

Longing to escape

This place we shared is no longer my home

I wish no ill will

I have no hate

I just would like this facade to be over one day

I can’t escape

Or heal my wounds

I feel you have an idea

That I’m holding on to you

That time has passed, I wish you’d see

How much your lies, hurt me

Seeing you now

I often think,

How this is my husband?

The stranger I see, looking back at me…..