as I stared into the eyes of the person I once loved

every ounce of my affection turned into aggravation

for I am not the evil one

I try my best to be kind

l try my best to smile at strangers when they pass by

but I don’t need to blame others to feel content with myself

everything I say or do relates to my mental health

every day I step a little closer to forgiveness

Life is too short to feel guilty within yourself

you apologize for past mistakes and look toward the future

for I will get better and I believe this with my whole heart

I am not the person I used to be

I am not the person who was used

I am not gonna be an abuser even though I was abused

and I find beauty in this every day when I look at myself in the mirror I no longer point out every flaw

as I stare at the body I used to hate I only have compliments to say to her

because now I have realized I’m speaking to her younger self

we all deserve to be treated with respect so why do we sell ourselves short when it comes to us

we all deserve to feel loved

look through the mean things we have done in the past

and look through the mean things we will do in the future

we are all worthy in someway or another

as I stare into the eyes of the person that made me want to die

I no longer have hate towards her

I only feel pity because now I am thriving

I have won because I am happy with myself

I no longer need male attention to keep me satisfied

I no longer need to show more parts of my body for anyone to love me

I love me and that is enough