You know,

Those words you said…

I was joking,

I thought we were playing around,

But you sounded like you meant them.

I didn’t know that you felt that way…

I had been on my way to the bathroom just for a tissue,

But when I got there I just sat for a while.

I’m not sure how long.

I had joked that your British accent was bad

And then you basically said I like to diminish other people

Because I’m insecure.

I am insecure.

You’re diminishing me.

I do accents all the time because I think it’s fun.

I’m not trying to show off.

Maybe I shouldn’t share these things.

Not with you anyway.

I don’t need you.

I don’t need you to like me.

Please,

Please like me.

I have other people,

I’ll be fine.

_please_.

If you thought I was insecure,

Why would you say such a thing?

What did I do?

_please._

__

I don’t want to go back here again.

Nobody understands why I need to be perfect.

Nobody understands why I need to be good.

I’m sorry,

I’m _sorry._

What did I do?

I just smiled,

Walked it off.

Put on a good face again,

And went back to my friends.

Are you my friend?

I always got the feeling you didn’t like me.

I always got the feeling.

But you’re a good person.

You’re a good person.

I don’t want to go back here again.

I’m sorry,

I’m sorry,

That I wasn’t better.

I’m sorry I wasn’t a perfect friend.

What did I do wrong?

I don’t even know yet.

Maybe it’s her,

Maybe it’s her,

Maybe it’s just her,

But they all love her,

They all love her,

They all love her.

You said I’m pathetic.

I just stood there while I crumbled inside.

I have too strong a conscience to be mean back,

Especially now that you meant it this time.

You let it all loose this time.

She watched,

You watched.

What did you want me to say to that?

I thought I was a good guy…

If there were tickets,

Would you come

To my own demise?