_They all hate me._

That’s fine.

It’s okay.

I know it,

And they fake it,

But it’s fine, really.

I’ve let every single person I’ve ever loved down.

And some of them say it’s fine,

That I’ve also done a lot of good.

But I know I’ll only let them down again.

And I’ll only have so many second chances.

And I’ll only keep myself together for a while longer,

So it’s better for them to hate me now anyway, before they lose me,

Right?

_They all hate me._

That’s fine.

They’re better without me.

I don’t deserve their love,

Their affection.

I seem distant, I know.

I’m acting _so weird._

I keep throwing my friends away,

Keep disappointing my parents,

Keep hurting my sister.

I open my mouth and I interrupt,

I hurt them- _I am hurting them._

I should stop now.

I should close my stupid mouth and just stop.

_They all hate me._

That’s fine.

I’m just letting them down,

Over and over again.

I can feel it in the air around me.

I can feel it in the awkward moments when no one knows what to say.

I’ve screwed up in every single good relationship I have.

I don’t know why they’re still here.

I don’t know why anyone bothers to try with me.

_They all hate me._

That’s fine.

It’s what’s best for everyone.