Like the legend Tupac shakur, you told me dry my eyes, and keep my head up

You could give advice but you couldn’t take it

The days are colder and you’re not getting any older

I dry my eyes and try to keep my head up

Thinking back to those days when we were young, partying, laughing, getting lit up

Jay said I wanna be forever young

And young is where you’ll be, forever young

You had just did a bid, came back a free man

While we were kicking it, cooling it, we thought it was all good

But freedom isn’t free after the penitentiary

You got caught up and lost it,

Man I never thought you’d be gone, shit

I close my eyes and I try to keep my head up

Ironic isnt it, you wouldn’t keep your head up

And when we found you that day your head was hung, shit I can’t forget it

Don’t cry dry your eyes and keep your head up

I heard those words on that sunny April day, when we buried you in the onyx casket

And now forever that’s where you lay, oh shit

I apologize for not seeing it sooner,

Cuz you were down, I didn’t know it

Nightmares of lock down, you didn’t show it

You kept your struggles inside, man we didn’t know shit

You musta had a demon inside you, telling you how to do it- use a rope, tie around ya throat, the other end wrapped around a basement pipe, what was that like?

I called downstairs and said goodbye, thinking space was what you needed

an insatiable appetite- that’s what needed feeding

I didn’t leave you alone, I left you with a demon, and on my way out the door I coulda swore I heard him say,

“Take my hand, fly with me, I’ll show you the key to becoming free, I’ll give you all you crave and all you ever needed, I’ll keep you young thug, I’ll show you real love”

You always deserved better than me, I had my own demon telling me “let him go, give him his freedom, cuz you know you ain’t got freedom”

Those little blue pills had me hanging by a noose

I was drowning and I wouldn’t take you down with me, I knew there was something wrong with me

To leave you like that, for a little bit of dope and Jack

When i left your house there was a car waiting for me

Satan himself said I did the right

Thing, he told me “come take a ride with me, let him be free, you’ll only

Make him suffer, can’t you see? Your a slave to me, the king of opiates and good times, empty promises and worn out rhymes

Come sniff this line off my dick, wait- you better not get sick, swallow your vomit while you suck this dick. Keep that head down you fuckin clown, mess around and I’ll leave you and you’ll never be found” I closed my eyes as he turned up the radio so loud I couldn’t think and I did all I could to stop from getting sick

You could guess what song was on the radio, dry your eyes keep your head up

That’s when I knew I fucked up

I pulled myself off the demons dick, and I spit up

“Go ahead leave me here, if I’m never found who would even care?” Easy as could be you took my pride from me, threw me on the side of the interstate and let me be

I’m done, that’s the last time I play with the demons games, opiates and dope idiots they’re not what I need

I dry my eyes keep my head up, walking hours till we could meet up

I musta called your phone a thousand times and I texted you saying this life wasn’t mine, I gave it all away to get back to you and me

But when I got back there was no one but me

And a lifeless corpse hanging free, directly below where I stood in the kitchen, screaming your name

like you were gone, when you were really directly under me

A floor apart, worlds apart, what did you do, how could we part?

Funny how life works out when you fall for a thug

I scream, I cry, I ball my eyes and I die

Inside. Cuz you’re no longer on my side

My ride or die, how could you die? Dry my eyes, keep my head up

Screaming at the paramedics on the phone

They said I didn’t do enough, they said I shoulda cut that rope up, they begged me to do CPR

My mouth was on yours only hours before, but how could I breath life into you when you were already cold, lifeless, and blue? Your eyes rolled back in your head, your tongue stuck out, man you looked so fucking scary standing there, dead.

Dry my eyes keep my head up, you’ll never wake up and i can’t make this shit up

Believe me when I say trust the ones you love

And never get caught up chasing drugs over love

Both will steal your heart

only one will give you life, the other will take your life

So dry your eyes keep your head up, and don’t ever look down

Keep it poppin and lockin and let it be known

Loves the deadliest drug

Cuz pills and booze make you forget you alone

But love screams so loud

My love screamed so loud

The night you were found

Late March, 313, let it be

Ten years this year your memory stays with me

And don’t get it twisted take this story to heart

Stay away from the demons, the drug devils that’s how it starts

And dry your eyes keep your head up

And we woulda never been apart.

REST IN PEACE JMELL, “your

Laughter lives on” 1.4.92-3.31.12

I’m sorry, my love. Lo sieto, mi amor.