I dont know what ill say? How do i bring it up?

As i walk towards my best friends front door my anxiety sky rockets and my hearts goes into my feet.

Surely whatever i say she’ll support me right? She my best friend.

*knock *knock*

Although i dont get why, if i was her i would think of me as a freak

I wonder if she does and she stays for pity.

Probably…

*door flys open*

“OMG are you alright” “you scared me, What sre you doing!??”

My best friend Eva (EVA ILY BAE) starts scolding me for getting her worried with my sudden multiple texts needing to talk.

“I just i need to get something out.” I say sternly.

“Girl get” as she drags me to her room and sits me on her bed

“Whats wrong?!? Youve been ignoring me for a week and now you suddenly spam text me at 3:00 wanting to talk”

“I’m sorry!”

She playfully slaps me on my wrists

“Well then…. Spit it out ill order food”

“I dont know how to start… i dont know myself”

She looks at me suspiciously

“What? You just need a friend right now? Im here y’know”

“I know… i guess i just need to talk about my feelings”

I say laying my head on her lap

“Ok well i guess i just….. i dont inow i feel so empty- not happy nor sad just…..empty like i want something to happen, like im wasting my life”

She starts messaging my head gently god I really missed her

“Oh hun, i fel ghe same way, i wish you’d tell me sooner, we could of figured it out together”

I sit up, “you have?”

“Yh”

“Really? Thats a relief i guess”

“I have been, and i’ve gotten over it, i guess the secret is to make stuff happen for yourself”

I look at her frowning

“I should, but i dont know i stop myself because it sounds exhausting”

She hugs me

“It is but its so rewarding and you have so many people including me here to give you any type of support you need.”

“Thank you it means alot”

I really love her so much, shes so real

“If you ever do that again i will be super pissed”

“I know im sorry”

We hug eben tighter

That was such a relief

(I was not bothered to write so i got lazy writing this lmao)