i was just trying to be

what you wanted;

a perfect best friend.

but i could never achieve the

impossible standard that

you expected me to be,

a skin-and-bones body,

the perfect ratio of reckless

to careful,

a giver,

who could never run out

of things to give.

my time,

my love,

my energy,

and eventually,

my life,

which you ruined.