Are you certain you won’t regret this? You are reeking of regret already. I can see it in your eyes, the hurt the pain and frustration. I am not the solution to your problem you wish to fix. Please take a moment and put the gun down please don’t let this get out of control. I need you to hear me, look at me I’m just a pawn that was placed in this muck I too ail I too lost everything and am now in dispare! But I understand that more evil won’t stop evil this is not the way. I beg of you! You and I can get out of this together and seek justice a different way.

Flash, flash, flash! twenty different cameras blasting off at the same time cause me to feel like I’m on a marigoldround on a cruise ship. I hop in the back of a suburban to find a bit of solace. I look at pictures of my girls and smile the silence allows me to live in the memory of each photo I gaze upon. Seconds later Like dropping a tray of glass plates the silence disappears “Yea, yea, yea absolutely bob we know she’ll be arriving there in fifteen minutes, then we’ll knock out all 20 schools before 4 pm. Ok Caio!” A fast paced book agent rattles off to my other agent. “Here drink this turmeric water and place these cucumbers on your temples you looked stressed, here have another espresso, I’ll another too!” “Joan, I’m ok, it’s ok.” I calmly as possible reply. I think to myself all the hard work and countless minutes I dreamed of being a best selling author and I never imagined the circus act it’d become.

1.My beloved brought me arrows from Cupid dipped in poison then penetrated deep in my heart. 2.you danced around the full moon as I withered away. 3. Laughing a thousand laughs at my ailing blindness. 4. Five cenetries vanished now I’m back for more. 5. This time it isn’t love I seek but vengeance upon your lineage. 6. I’ll be there when they find love and like a hammer to a mirror I’ll see that it won’t last. 7.they will bleed with heartbrake as I curse their walls 8.paranoia like an insomniac will torture them until they fade away. 9.alone, scared and lost, the same gifts you adorned me with. 10.you didn’t get away beloved, for I am the haunting of your worst dreams.

Pressure like a volcano You all depend on me The loneliness you’ll never know It’s not safe for you to see

I take a long journey and it’s only by myself To feel a hand to feel a hug that is what I want The only thing I have it’s the raging heat itself To be studied by any and all the worlds savant

I gaze down at the world below filled with connection I want some I want some but I’m miles away from any Is it hard to understand that the sun wants some affection There are other stars around but they are tasked with plenty

Until then it’s just me Still wanting some Until the I’ll just be A very lonely sun

The mosquito hovering with its pesky stinger was ignored. Normally the reaction to one of those or any bug would warrant calls for SWAT to show up. Not today. Today the grass smells sweeter and the rain drops are welcomed to plop on top of heads. The energy is big as the excitement on New Year’s Eve. The smiles radiate from face to face stories being exchanged like ping pong balls. Laughter burst through like rumbles of thunder loud and uncontrollable. Theres a warmth in the atmosphere not to the touch but of the spirit. The hand strikes three and the scene turns gray. Time has come to share our good byes. The little sad voices of the younger ones don’t understand, why stop this lovely afternoon with family and friends it’s a better time than having ten ice cream sundaes with extra marshmallows. Their little eyes fill with ocean water and out pour streams of disappointment. Here comes the question “can we please stay?” I’m so sorry honey but not today.