today felt no different
i woke with my nervous system fully engaged
assessing the dream i had asked god
whom i do not follow
to give me while I slept
repeating a lost prayer
god
jesus
i haven’t followed you in a long time
i understand if you don’t listen
i recognize why you wouldn’t answer
the deafining cry of my thoughts
but please can you show me a sign
throw it in my face
make it obviou...
oh, like the sun, do i rise
i open my eyes and take a deep breath
jump to start
someone left the keys in the ignition.
go to work, clock in
clock out, rinse, repeat
my heart is racing
i have almost forgotten the word ambition.
oh like the sun, do i fall
into darkness once again
then rise
and jump to start.
rinsed and repeated
like the question in my head
“who is going to die today?”
an echo ...