Giving up is clay between my fingers.

Now that I’m not going to make a vase

The possibilities are endless....

Alone.

I’m all alone.

In a room full of people.

And I’m all alone.

I know what you said about me

That day

I was storming away

In the middle of my own grievances

Which I had shared with you in confidence

The day my life ran astray.

I know what you said about me.

It doesn’t make any sense.

Can’t they see?

I’m not the one to blame!

How did this twisted, agonizing pain

Become a lie used against ...

I remember feeling like I would never come back

Even if I wanted to.

It was airy there

Not in a cozy way.

In a lost way.

Disconnection.

Split.

Rewiring.

A new direction.

But the same direction.

It was only a moment

When I really think about it.

I’m back.

And I think I’m stronger now....

My worst fear

Came uninvited

And took a seat at my kitchen table

That smile so green

And it’s gaze so mild

I thought I could turn and run

Wrong

Was it interested

Pleased

Diseased

Yes

It had no fear at all

I stood there

Frozen

Immobile

Stock still

Trying to keep my light

Why does it think it can hold me like this?

I know whose I am

It’s still here for the long night

One word

One tongue

On...

Oh to be in love

With you there never had been

That warm greeting

Of a flame meeting the cold

Yet I stand by your fire....

Awake or sleeping?

Sometimes I dream I am awake

I am more alive than I have ever been

Awake.

I can fly

Dance

Explore

Breath under water

See the world I will never see

Awake.

But what will become of me?

Participating in my fantastic illusions

Only to grace the waking world

Asleep.

I could awaken

Dream

Create

Love

The normal world around me

Awake.

Alive....