I am made entirely of flaws, stitched together by good intentions. A heart that wants to open wide and swallow whole Envelop you in the love I feel you deserve but havent yet felt Shower you in closeness and show you your gifts Make you feel love like you havent even dreamed After you’ve showered me in love and re-assuring words Caressed me, expressed the feelings that are firsts I finally feel safe to come out of my shell and give it all back to you Only to sense distance now. You’re not there holding my face anymore I havent heard those words of longing in a while Now I’m not sure If that was real, if it was true, if it still exists, was it a ruse Were you in lust, do you even know what you want Do you actually see me?.. Or have you scared yourself now out of fear for the reality of real love Please dont’t take our butterflies away.

I must confess That although it feels sad and stagnant to sit in my loneliness I know it is what I need to process all the love that was abruptly forced to the side I know it was real, and it will never leave my heart I know there will be more, one day, beginning right back at the start I know that I have to be alone for a while to be ready to move forward I know that what is meant for me is somewhere onward I know that the universe will never give us peace where we’re not meant to be I know that there is a greater plan which is still hiding from me I know that as long as I keep moving forward, and working on myself that my purpose, my people and my plan will soon be revealed however hard it is to trust in all this I trust that my intuition has my back I trust there are reasons beyond my sight for my choices and sacrifices So I confess.. there is only forward And I trust I will make it I trust it’s full of love

from the warmth of the fire along the dark path to the water they gazed up into the clearest night in complete quiet to see millions of stars almost high enough they could reach they dreamed on each sun, moon and stars

As I stumbled into an adorable cafe I noticed in a new part of town, shaking my umbrella off and stomping my boots into the welcome mat, I quickly felt the warmth and sweet smell of coffee and fresh pastries.. There was a tall cactus potted at the end of the bar A cobalt blue and gold espresso machine And cute wooden tables nestled along the window’s lounge Each with a petite succulent and tea-light candle.. It felt like this was my second home, and I’ll now live here part time with my laptop Writing these poems Learning Photography skills and planning my future As I sip on Cappucino’s And Mocha’s And Piccolo’s And when it gets warmer, Iced Matcha Latte’s.. But right now, this was my little slice of heaven And I’m going to sit here all day, snuggled up against the window in my lounge seat Watching the rain fall and letting my mind bake Soaking in the warmth of the fire place burning at the end of the room As I become one with my dreamland in the clouds Of idea’s for what I can make of my next chapter All thanks to this adorable little cafe That was someone else’s idea from their dreamland How lucky I am to now be here, in this idyllic, idea brought to real life Paid forward for people like me to sit in and enjoy to create my own

I am made entirely of flaws stitched together by good intentions seeded in muddy soil I bloomed in bright spring yet withering whilst fighting growing thorns not meant for me that I needed for defense for if I would seek to bloom I’d learn I feel safer in my cocoon

Why would anyone want to escape from the sky fortress? What if I told you, in a far away, vibrant corner of the earth, hidden behind a gorge and vast mountain range, there was a long winding staircase that will deliver you to the most ethereal castle in existance. With views from high up, neighbouring the fluffy clouds, and overlooking all of Earth, you can live in a paradise. Here you would have health and all the organic produce you need, spring water, a comfortable and luxurious home and a job found for you that connects with your own sense of purpose. Though it’s not just the journey to discovering the location which you must survive, it’s a test at the entrance. You will be interviewed to determine if you are suited to such a lifestyle. You’ll be questioned on your ego, your humility, your selflessness, your work ethic, for if those things aren’t a strong enough pilar of who you are, you may be a threat to the peace of the Sky Fortress. One must be strong, kind, generous, purposeful, caring, hard working and somewhat intuitive. These qualities will ensure you can thrive, have a sense of purpose and be of value to the other inhabitants. The Sky Fortress will not accept all who merely survive the journey, as to be lucky enough to live in such an oasis, one must know the worth of this opportunity and what it means to be a resident. So what happens once you’ve found your place here? Can you marry? Can you farm, cook, design, create, have a family, travel, ascend or practice your spirituality? Drink alcohol, party? Do they have a ruler, monarchy of sorts? Do you remain human, do you become another being entirely?.. The civilians of the world still don’t know the answers, only those who make the Sky Fortress their forever home, know this. Until now…

Lately my emotion has evoked the skies to cry Weeks it’s been pouring From way up high to my eyes It’s mimicking my sadness The atmosphere is permitting me to be a recluse
So for now ill stay dry and warm inside In my shell like a hermit Until I can feel it all and not break Until I can sleep sound And rested, refresheningly awake

for so long I wanted to be worthy of roses not requested roses not a large bunch either just thought of as her worthy of roses but why I ask myself a beautiful sight yet dangerous to hold representing love and romance they may but after a few days they’re value and beauty has wilted and they’ve died their dream. sold

Find me down the garden path… But if I’m there Don’t disturb me I’ll be in my other world In my prettiest long, lace dress Singing as I twirl Dancing as I whirl Drifting high above With my butterfly friends I’ll be back soon from my fairy garden But if I’m still there Let me be You won’t be able to reach me

Do you think the sun gets lonely up there? It burns so bright endlessly.. Always warm and exuding it’s heat to birth life Creating all forms of life wherever her rays may fall How much energy does she have for herself after all?.. To think it could come so naturally to burn bright fully Always Every day from within Fulfill your purpose so completely Never feel the cold of the harsh atmosphere surrounding Knowing you only need your own heat To be content with your light Unbothered by the opinions of the other planets Or silly whispers floating about Of being blinded by her glow, if only she’d dim it down She remains illustrious in her own right So may she burn bright for all in her orbit For who would the other little stars look up to If she ceased to light the universe So may she burn bright and be the light forevermore