Polly Marie

Absolutely no experience writing. Think of this as a personal journal where you get a look into my soul.

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Polly Marie

Absolutely no experience writing. Think of this as a personal journal where you get a look into my soul.

Writings

Followers

Following

a knowing

Polly Marie

1 min read

i have had this feeling since i was a little girl that my life will be short.

that i will not grow old.

it isn’t a “maybe” or a “i suppose it could happen”; but more of an intrinsic knowing of my fate that cannot be changed.

i do not fear it.

i do not dread the eventual end of my days.

i am simply curious of the next chapter.

i wonder if the feeling of resignation and melancholy that’s been ...

Drama

it’s just a phase

Polly Marie

1 min read

“it’s the honeymoon phase. it ends for everybody. i’m sure at one point it’ll end for us, too. infatuation doesn’t last.”

oh, but darling

it’s never been a phase for me...

maybe.

Polly Marie

1 min read

maybe this life isn’t the one

where i get that all-consuming

soul shattering

kind of love.

maybe

i’m just naive.

i’m just wishing for more meaning.

wishing that i’m meant for more.

maybe

too many disney movies have ruined me.

they’ve maybe ruined what i had in mind for my life.

maybe all i’m meant for is small.

small town. small dreams. small life.

small moments of incredible love, instead of...

Drama

exhausted

Polly Marie

1 min read

my mother used to tell me

i have such a big heart

that i get sad because i care so much

and it’s something wonderful.

but now im here, and she’s gone

and i love and i love, and give and i give

but i never get what i give so freely in return.

perhaps it’s my own fault.

for lacking boundaries. for caring so much. for having so much love to give but not adjusting my expectations.

it’s exhausting. i...

Drama

commodity

Polly Marie

2 min read

sometimes i feel like a commodity.

like every woman before me, i am something to be had. something to possess.

i am someone who gives and takes care.

i am the conductor who guides every note and rhythm of a shared life that doesn’t feel like my own. the harmonies of everyone else’s wants and expectations are deafening, crushing the soft melody of my cries of _who is going to take care of me? who...

Drama

grief

Polly Marie

1 min read

there’s this aching, gnawing pain in the middle of my chest.

it’s ever present.

some days it’s gentle, and some days it’s not.

on gentle days, it’s a piece of me i hold close. a bittersweet whisper reminds me to cherish the memories i have and to live my days with intention and joy.

on the bad days, though, it’s suffocating.

on bad days it’s a raging tempest that threatens to swallow me who...

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and so i write

Polly Marie

2 min read

you’ve heard me say

_i am not good with words, _

_i have a hard time getting them out._

_i prefer to write. _

you have requested that i write for you moments of us.

and so, for you, i will write.

i will write about the day we finally collided in this lifetime

how your hazel eyes penetrated my soul

how the pull i felt to you was gentle, yet insistent.

how at first i thought we would be fun. j...

Romance

admittance.

Polly Marie

1 min read

today i finally admitted it.

to myself and to my soul i accepted the selfishness of how bad i want everything with you.

i’ve known it for awhile now but never let myself really think about it.

to play out exactly what i want in my head.

to get lost in the absolute beauty of everything we can have and everything we can be.

i’m finally letting myself write down exactly what i’m yearning for.

i...

Romance

The Question

Polly Marie

1 min read

“Who are you?”

This question rattles around in my head, bouncing off the walls of my skull like an incessant pingpong ball. I have been ruminating on it for longer than I’d like to admit, simply because it’s a question I can’t easily answer.

_Who am I?_

Well, I know my name. I know where I come from. I know my profession and my hobbies. But that doesn’t answer it, does it?

In writing this I re...

Drama

You Feel Like Home

Polly Marie

1 min read

You and I lay skin to skin, the only barriers between our souls are flesh and bone.

I can feel your heartbeat beneath my fingertips. The cadence of each beat keeps pace with mine. I listen and feel as the tempo of your breath soothes my restless heart.

For eight years I’ve been a vagabond. I’ve been wandering through life, watching it pass me by without even realizing I wasn’t living. She knew m...

Romance