Time is ticking, and there’s no where else to run
The thought of change is sickening, but I refuse to be done
Done with the chaos and pain that eats me alive
Efforts may be in vain, but I’m just trying to survive
I try to forgive and forget, but my memory likes to fail me
Some things I do regret, but I’m done taking a knee
I quit being sorry for myself and wishing I had more
I won’t put my friends up on that high shelf, even if it makes my heart sore
Betrayals seem so normal now, it’s actually kinda sad
So to myself I will make this vow, I will stop being mad
So take your hit, try to slow me down
But I won’t throw a fit, and you’ll be left with your frown
I can unblock and not hate, but apologies seem to be lost with the baggage
I know some can relate, and all that’s left is the damage
But I learned from the past, like everyone must
People can leave so fast, so who’s left to trust?
Every day seems the same, But I am the only one to blame. I am in solitude, I disassociate. My conversation has become so out of date.
I lie in my bed and stare at the wall, My mind accustomed to the social withdrawal. I’m growing tired of the forced communication, But I won’t throw out the accusation.
But change can be a loss or gain, Because you can’t have a rainbow without rain. So why don’t I take this chance, And maybe I’ll wake up from this trance.
Inspired by Jennifer Niven’s “All The Bright Places”
When will he learn How far is too much Never slowing down Too close to not touch.
Wants it to end He’s ready to go He is too tired And time is too slow.
He wants to live But he stopped trying So the choice he makes Will leave you crying.
He is sorry He must leave you now To reach the unknown To take his last bow.
Lost in the fog Alone in the deep Bound by a promise That he couldn’t keep.
It couldn’t have lasted forever. My happiness, my sanity. Gone like the switch of a lever, Try to get back to reality.
Wonder why it all happened, Just last year. My heart has been blackened, No emotions, no tears.
So much has changed, too much to tell, Where did all the time go? It left with you, once you fell Into death’s hands, the final blow.
So please oh please don’t treat it the same
As people on a chess board caught in check So you must realize we are all a wreck In this world full of pain, but not only Heartache but we are not lonely. The people we have and loved ones we care For all may share The worries and thoughts we can’t help think So before you judge just know we aren’t all in sync. We are all different in our own way But that doesn’t mean we can just betray
The ones who have been with us through the most Because why boast The words we have said and people we have harmed, When all we really do is make them armed With hate and depression that we also feel So why take out on others what we know is too real? Real as the anxiety and depression and thoughts filling the mind Why would we do something so unkind? Because we hurt and want others to also
Its the world we live in, so let’s stop and follow The One who has gave us this glorious life where Happiness and joy and not only strife But the love we have for others will heal The hearts we break and time we steal. We have this gift so let’s not waste it This life we were given so let’s just admit The sins we have sinned, words we have lied. Let’s make this place a better world so we can survive This attack on us from the evil who lurks
Around every corner so let’s make it work
To steal our hearts and minds from God’s hand
So that we will always be with him and go with His plan.
Try so hard. Never being enough. All the oppressive words of this world making me feel I am not worthy of love. I am worthy. But how could I be? The life I wanted is something I cannot see. To hear the harmful words of my peers, Is to rip my heart out and scream through the tears. Why would I even try anymore, If the world is as it currently is, not as it was before We all became the scared and tired creatures with no compassion for others. Even the disrespecting of our mothers.
But this world can change through the burning The tearing, the recurring Nightmarish days that turn into trauma we must live every day Over and over again as if there is no other way. We must fight through the tears, cry through the years, and learn from our fears That make us who we are so we don’t want to disappear. We can change the ways of this world’s past And live every day as if it was our last Day to make everything better So we can realize that only God is our tether.
So yes I am worthy Of love and life and the days that come too early That we want to slow down but life is too fast For us to rush and worry about our past. What’s done is done, no turning back From the choices you’ve made and the decisions you lack To make, so now you must accept the consequences For the choices you haven’t made and come to your senses And realize life is precious and isn’t a game So please oh please don’t treat it the same.
Drip, drip, drip. Click, click, click. Always the same, always the same. I believe I may be going insane. Always the same in this room. Except when I get my food. Maybe I’ll get a call today. Or tomorrow, it doesn’t matter either way. So fun to hit the padded walls. I run and play like it’s nothing at all. Nothing but the nothingness of the nothing inside. No worries to worry about on this carefree joyride. But I hate this place of nothing. I want to have everything. I wish the world still accepted me. I wish that my mind would let me be free. But I’m trapped inside it, so it won’t be soon. Because I’ll always be caged in my white room.
He was a monster, The man that I hated. He was everything I disliked, And very outdated.
When I think of him, My heart will implode. Not from emotion, But from the bomb’s code.
His name is the spark, That creates a killing flame. You always make me question, Was this really all a game?
But of course it was, And time will tell. When you will truly regret, That time that you fell.
My twilight.
Not only the sun nor moon, Yet the in between.
No longer the azure blue day, With the sun emerging on the horizon.
Or the celestial night, The moon dust scattered like fallen leaves.
The beginning and the end. Start and finish.
I will stay with you, Our secrets safe between worlds.
No more hiding, running. Just us in your peace.
Oh, the peace in never changing. No questions or fear.
You drawn near as I wait, My eyes dreaming of our new memories.
As the sun dips down underneath my feet, And the moon tips over my head,
I welcome you home.
