_My Dearest __Natalie__, 1/7/1832_

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_560 days without word from you or the main land, i’m beginning to worry if my letters are even reaching you. My trusty carrier pigeon -Thomas- has been a good companion on these wretched seas. Some nights I think of what we would be doing together. Would we court each other? Or is that not allowed in your world. I would love nothing more than...

My mom wasn’t a good person. I mean, she was as good as she could be, but it wasn’t good enough. often leaving my sister to fend for herself, leaving for days at a time.

My dad wasn’t much better. Alcoholic. I found out what that word meant when I was 7 then I was able to connect the dots. my sister was nearly 10 when I was born. when I was put in to this world my parents decided they would sha...

I tried to kill myself last May. “wow you attention seeker” i’m sure you’re thiking that. who wouldn’t. I lay in the feild that day, thinking of the easiest way to go. Letters where already written. I’d told my family I needed to go for a walk. Get out of the house, feel the warmth of spring around me.

People always say that you are never alone and someone is always there. That’s not true. I liv...

Yawning, I sit up in bed, stretching and blinking in the early sun. My best friends had left earlier in the week and i was once again on my lonesome. Well, of course there was always Mason, but he was….interesting.

7:35am

mason:

_“are we going again today?”_

_sigh. _can’t even brush my teeth first.

Mason and i met in the 4th grade when he moved here from NJ. His mom was a druggie (according t...

Vibration. Constant vibration, constant movement. consistency, consistency, constant control. Always and again. Always and again. Spreading in my wake. I spread and I reach and I grow. Making my way through the maze of this uncanny red light i sense invariably. Invariably. Satisfaction but only once i’ve been through it all. Every crimson shaft. None untouched. No corner I have yet to discover. ...

walk,

one foot,

the other,

walk,

pause,

look,

no one,

walk,

one foot,

the other,

wait,

breathing?

walk,

stop,

look

someone,

run....